New Year Resoluton and A Blast From the Past

I hope all my readers had a very merry Christmas and a Happy Holiday. Today is New Years Eve which just astounds me to be the point where I'm speechless. So many blessings were brought forth in my life this past year. And so many trials. But I'm not very fond when it comes to dwelling upon the negative so I'm going to make a list of all my blessings that I experienced this past year, and encourage you to do so as well!


1. I drew closer to God. You can never get enough of God's infinite love and care. See there is no limit. That is why I love my Father so much and I've grown closer to Him this past year; Because He never changes. His love never fails. And He only wants the best for me.

2. I've come to understand the Savior in a whole new light. I used to think of the Savior as a vague yet kind man who sacrificed his life for me and I owed him. But that is NOT the case. Jesus is not at all vague. He is apparent. He reveals his wondrous works through the scriptures and his seers and prophets throughout history to the present day. He loves us more than anything and didn't give up his life because God asked him to. He offered it unto us because He loves us. If his love is an ocean, we're all sinking and drowning yet we are living in his love. Because the Savior is everlasting and His power is manifesting. He is as real as can be and I'm thankful for Him more than I can even comprehend.

3. My recovery. It's been a hard year, yet I cannot help but rejoice in my recovery. I was struggling with depression and my eating disorders and other personal issues. But then I let myself heal and through the Grace of God, I was healed. Sure, I still have my days. The difference now is that I know I can tell somebody and I'm not afraid to ask for help from God or from those I love.


4. My Health.  For about two months now I had made the decision to become vegetarian, hoping t be become a full-time vegan pretty soon. And it feels great! I feel so much more alert and happy then I was before. When I was struggling with my eating disorder I never really grasped the idea of a healthy diet. I always thought starving yourself was how you get skinny and healthy. Wrong. Let me say this; if you're eating three meals a day, maybe some deserts and snacks here and there, but your eating things like vitamins, fruits, vegetables and grains and you're trying your best and you are exercising for at least an hour a day, you are doing fine. I have been told that I need to lose weight and that I'm not skinny enough or good enough or whatever. Now, if anyone tries to tell me or even whisper the word diet, I go on a full on rant and you know, I've been told I'm known for my temper. But how can I not defend myself? I'm beautiful, curves and angles and mustard stains and all.  I know I still like sweets. I have a fetish for milkshakes and onion rings. But I eat moderately and it's alright to have days where you junk out. We are all human. I'm so tired of hearing girls thinking that they have to size zero to feel beautiful. Curves are not beautiful. Skinny is not beautiful. YOU are beautiful. Remember that. And make sure, if you're feeling up to doing exercise so you indulge yourself with pity parties full of junk food, to take a step back and breathe. First of all, don't hurt yourself for pigging out. The next day, just work out. Working out isn't just lifting weights and running till you get cramps. My favorite kind of workout are aerobics. For example, zumba. To me, it feels like I'm not working out but just having fun. Find out what works for you. If it might be yoga, aerobics, kickboxing, dancing, swimming etc. If you're moving, then you're all good. I love being fit, but that doesn't I still don't have my days of junk feasting. It's alright. The key is smaller portions, eat more vitamins and exercise. If you can sit on your butt watching reruns of Keeping Up With The Kardashions like I tend to do, I know you can exercise for at least an hour. Sorry for the huge pep talk but I just love discussing health and how it changed my life, for the good.


5. My Singing and Blogging Success. I look back and feel grateful for how I've changed. Especially my voice. I can reach more notes then I could before and I've discovered so many cool indie artists that have changed my perspective on how music should be. My songwriting has become so much more potent and deeper. I'm not afraid to say I'm proud of myself. I'm definitely not the best out there, that's for sure, and I still have so much more to work on. But it's all a process. And, just recently I created a Youtube account where I sing Covers. I posted a Cover about three days ago and it's already has more than 100 views. I love you guys so much. I couldn't have done it without you. Here's the link: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC68JBqbkeHVVefQDisKnIYA But really, I couldn't have done all those worship nights at different churches without the help of those who allowed me to perform. I'm also grateful for my family and friends that supported me in my singing career. And I'm so glad that I made this blog! I love sharing my life and advice to people I don't even know. And I love sharing God's love to all ya'll! Thank you so much for reading my blog and keeping up with me, even though I think I'm pretty boring. :) I'm just an average girl, but I'm happy that I get to share my average-ness with you.



As for my New Years Eve resolution. I don't really believe in New Years Resolutions because most them, sadly, fail. I believe in goals that I have already started. If you mess up, pick yourself back up and try again. Even if it's not new years day, you can still make a change. Hope ya'll have a good night and be safe and have fun!





















Happy New Years Eve!!!!!

God's love never fails

“How could ye have rejected that Jesus who stood with open arms to receive you?” (Mormon 6:17)

I've been asked by many of my peers, why I chose to be Mormon, and why I am not ashamed of being Mormon and why I love the church...and I'll tell ya.



During the most struggling and gruesome trials in my life, it is Christ who helps strengthen my testimony in this beloved Church, when I accept His love and guidance. Jesus is ultimately the center of this Church. He is the founder thereof. And I have searched the whole world to find another religion that could cause such joy and happiness and such peace, and I could find none except the Church I am in now; The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints.


Some members I've met, especially my fellow youth, will tell me that they do not know for sure if the Church is true. "Well," I say, "have you prayed about it?". The answer is usually no, so I think that's the first step. If you are in doubt, or have a question and you are frustrated that you can't seem to find an answer, ask God. He isn't merely a clockmaker, who creates and doesn't involve Himself in his creations existence. God's whole purpose is to "bring to pass the immortality of man". And by this, we can come to know God better, and even someday become like Him. How amazing is that? Our God is a merciful God and has provided so many tools and ways to communicate with Him, receive revelation from Him and come back to HIM. God is not a secretive God and neither is this Church. We invite all men, to come and partake of the blessings beyond compare.









Now in my experience, it was little different. I was born in the Church but never sense a connection with God and had my doubts. I then involved myself with the wrong people, the wrong crowd you say. But mostly, I felt lonely and desperate for something I didn't even know I had. I was longing for God's love. And so, I asked God for myself, if He was there and I can tell you He is. His love is so tangible and everlasting. But God is open to all men, who desire Him. But no one can stop Heavenly Father from loving us. You are permitted to not believe in Him, but you cannot ever convince God to love you any less. Regardless of any sin, of your background, of your doubts...God's love never fails. If you allow His presence He won't relent until He has it all. What love is that? It is Christ's love. It is God's love. It is love. And when the day comes, where we meet our Savior again, I feel as though if we didn't do the best we could've and we rejected His blessings and most of all love, we will all regret it at the last day. But there is still hope and it is called the Atonement.


It baffles me that somehow, we reject His endless adoration and love towards us. It baffles me how some people can not accept the Atonement. I think it is because we cannot comprehend His love. Most of the time, the reason we have doubts about God, is because we do not know how much He truly loves us. Like Kari Jobe says in her graceful words..."What love is, that You gave Your life for me...and made a way for me to know you? What love is that?" It is Christ's love. It is God's love. It is love. "Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends." (John 15:13).












And His love never fails, it never gives up, it never runs out on me...- Jesus Culture. It truly does not. No matter who you were before, no matter who you are today, you can change through the atonement of Christ and His wondrous grace. You can't do it all on your own. I know I cannot fathom being controlled over someone else but God isn't a controlling God, He is a loving one. And all His commandments and covenants we seal upon ourselves, our for our greater good. We may not know why now, but I've realized the best way to prove to yourself that the Lord's way is the best way is to tell yourself why not and simply, do it.

After you follow the commandments and try your best, I promise you that you will notice the blessings His word gives. Our God is a faithful God and He is also our Heavenly Father who loves us. He sent His only Begotten Son to die for us. And Christ too, loves us infinitely. How can we not accept their open arms? How can we not? The answer is this: Don't reject, accept.

Life Is Curious...by Erin Clegg

My darlings, life is so curious 

Can you even see

I don't even know why there has to be answers

You know, because life isn't fun 

When there aren't any questions to dig

There isn't any stories to tell

The ones that are suspenseful

Well, those are the best

And loves, I have a story to tell

It's my life well of coarse

And stories, they don't follow the rules

Oh no, stories tell a tale of breaking them

And finding yourself through nakedness

Striping down your internal impurities 

Will only make you boring

Because if we were on this earth to be good

Why did this so called God allow bad

Now don't get me darlings,

I don't rejoice in the devilish ways

But through hell will we find heaven

Like dear old Dante did

But there is no heaven and there is no hell

Unless you think you are in one of the two

See, when I'm overcome with gallows of sorrow

It is hell I see on earth, I swear it to be the truth

And when I'm happy, which I don't really know what happy is,

I guess I feel like I'm in heaven too

What is heaven

What is hell

What is devil

What is God

We are all

of the above

For we decide our destiny 

I hope and pray though, at the ends of our days

We won't turn into dust

At least, Great Universe, let us be the stars

How curious it is though, I feel the most peaceful

when I'm talking to the Above

Because even if He is there and even if He isn't

At least the Moon is

And I forget all my doubts and tribulations

And rejoice in the curious tomorrow 

Life is curious...it should be that way

Because when we die, who knows what will see..............

- Erin Clegg